I promised myself, this was the beginning of the new me, the better me. I never wanted to feel that broken and lost again. I am so grateful that my husband stuck with me through my crazy melt down, while I was stuck in an internal battle, he helped me function externally so the rest of the world would not witness my private struggle. With his help, I began researching ways to let go of the stress that was so tangible, it felt more like an illness. I changed my diet, got rid of the junk food, fast food and soda. I drank more water instead of another cup of coffee. I started to practice meditation which allowed me to quiet my mind and really hear my inner voice. I was finally beginning to feel at peace with myself, I felt so alive for the first time in a long time that I wanted to discover more and dive deeper. Now that I was in a healthier state of mind, I wanted to look back and understand why I was so unhappy, why I felt unfulfilled. It turns out I didn't want to be a worker bee, working the nine to five grind, all my hard work contributing to the company making millions of dollars while I made pennies, a company that wasn't giving anything back. I wanted to make a difference in the world. Once that realization hit me, I needed to then figure out how I could make an impact on the world. What was my message I wanted to send to the world? Another journey down the rabbit hole of self discovery, and I finally found my life purpose.